The Solution – A Spiritual Experience

When I was living in darkness I was afraid of the light and the One that all light comes from.  I was afraid of God and that fear came from my shame – my shame separated me from God .

I thought that the way that I was living meant that God would want have to have nothing to do with me and so I ran from him.  I had a certain idea of who God was and I felt I did not deserve him – that God was disappointed with me. The way I was living ultimately chased me into Alcoholics Anonymous and it took a while but at some point I realized that God was hiding in plain sight,  waiting for me there along with my other brothers and sisters.  They were all thrilled that I had come home!

So today I know that when our book tells us that there is one power that there is one who has all power that one is God may you find him now, I know that he is and always has been right there with me. He always will be so long as I am willing to reach out to him.

I know today that he is not the source of condemnation and shame but the solution to my shame.  I know that God is love and love is all that matters. If I live in love I live with God and when I do that I choose to live like it says on page 25 of the Big Book.  In the solution I choose to live in a spiritual experience with God and when I do that I find much of heaven right now.

Today heaven is not an exit strategy it’s a way of life that we can choose to embrace.

What a gift! Thank you Lord!

God is in the Recovery Business



Alcoholics Anonymous is a solid program of suggestions that has helped millions to recover from alcohol and drugs. The AA program recognizes that recovering from drug abuse alone can leave a void that need to be filled spiritually because studies have proved that drug abuse is yet but a symptom revealing issues of a host of problems or demons that still exist after the drugs and alcohol are gone.


Lack of power, that was our dilemma. We had to find a power by which we could live, and it had to be a Power greater than ourselves. Obviously. But where and how were we to find this Power? Well, that’s exactly what this book is about. Its main object is to enable you to find a Power greater than yourself which will solve your problem. That means we have written a book which we believe to be spiritual as well as moral. And it means, of course, that we are going to talk about God. AA Big Book p.45 We Agnostic


Perhaps there is a better way—we think so. For we are now on a different basis; the basis of trusting and relying upon God. We trust infinite God rather than our finite selves. We are in the world to play the role He assigns. AA Big Book p. 68 How it Works


What exactly is that role for me? What does God say that role is?


Step 12 of the program suggests: Having a experience as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to pratice these princilpes in all our affairs.


This Step slightly parallels this scripture:


Matthew 28:18-20 NLT


Jesus came and told his disciples, “I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth. Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”


Clearly as the Twelve Steps of AA are designed to help people remedy their spiritual malady of alcohol, drugs, it is also designed to help us from the spiritual separation from God. The Good News is God is in the RECOVERY business!


Remember that we deal with alcohol—cunning, baffling, powerful! Without help it is too much for us. But there is One who has all power—that One is God. May you find Him now! Half measures availed us nothing. We stood at the turning point. We asked His protection and care with complete abandon.. AA Big Book pp.58-59 How it Works


The parallel of a half measure is consistant with this passage:


Revelation 3:15-16 KJV


I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot. So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.


In many cases with faith and recovery, people lose thier power, flame, drive, personal conviction to stay focused and remain HOT for what God has set before them to accomplish. Some fail after twenty plus years of sobriety. In those cases ive noticed the lack or non-existance of faith through Jesus Christ. Growing your faith in Jesus Christ is the full measure.


In this book you read again and again that faith did for us what we could not do for ourselves. We hope you are convinced now that God can remove whatever self-will has blocked you off from Him. AA Big Book pp.70-71 How it Works


The self-will, pride, equates to sin. The intoxication, drunkenness, being loaded, high, the alcohol, drugs, the sickness of addiction all boils down to idolatry. Plainly it keeps you separated from God, and in addiction, it is all that you seek.


We never apologize to anyone for depending upon our Creator. We can laugh at those who think spirituality the way of weakness. Paradoxically, it is the way of strength. The verdict of the ages is that faith means courage. All men of faith have courage. They trust their God. We never apologize for God. Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. AA Big Book p.68 How it Works


What does God want to do? Salvation. God wants to recover your soul. Due to our self-will / sin we have separated ourselves from God.


John 3:15-17 NLT


so that everyone who believes in him will have eternal life. “For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. God sent his Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through him.


Romans 10:9-10 NLT


If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is by believing in your heart that you are made right with God, and it is by confessing with your mouth that you are saved.


Pay close attention to the words in verse 10. This is the pathway of being right with God, its by believing in your heart that Jesus Christ is Lord and confessing it with your mouth, witnessing or plainly saying it. Now your SPIRITUAL HOUSE is in order. Jesus Christ is Lord! I am saved by grace through faith in Jesus Christ, I believe. Now the foundation of a RELATIONSHIP with Jesus Christ is forming. Now Step 3 will take on a new meaning:


Step 3. Made a DECISION to turn our WILL and our LIVES OVER to the CARE of God AS WE UNDERSTOOD HIM.


This is how Bill W. and Dr.Bob founders of AA came to understand God;


I must turn in all things to the I must turn in all things to the Father of Light who presides over us all. of Light who presides over us all. AA Big Book p14 Bill’s Story


James 1:17 KJV


Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.


If you think you are an atheist, an agnostic, a skeptic, or have any other form of intellectual pride which keeps you from accepting what is in this book, I feel sorry for you. If you still think you are strong enough to beat the game alone, that is your affair. But if you really and truly want to quit drinking liquor for good and all, and sincerely feel that you must have some help, we know that we have an answer for you. It never fails, if you go about it with one half the zeal you have been in the habit of showing when you were getting another drink. Your Heavenly Father wil never let you down. AA Big Book p.181 A Doctor’s Nightmare


AS WE UNDERSTOOD HIM… this has to be the most misunderstood statement of the program and people have skewed it and twisted its meaning. The WE refers to the founders and original members of the program. Which is the basis of RARELY HAVE WE SEEN A PERSON FAIL WHO HAS THOROUGHLY FOLLOWED OUR PATH.


Matthew 11:28-30 KJV


Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, AND LEARN OF ME; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.


The answers will come, if your own house is in order. But obviously you cannot transmit something you haven’t got. See to it that your RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM IS RIGHT and great events will come to pass for you and countless others. This is the Great Fact for us. AA Big Book p. 164 A Vision for You


Romans 10:10 provides the answer to how to get “your house in order” with God. This is the crucial component to recovey, the cure for the spiritual malady ( sickness) and the Salvation the God wants for us (recovery). The writers of the AA Big Book clearly new the “Solution”. But due to the secular world they chose to write the book in such a way that it would be all inclusive, but placed enough “clues” in the book that would lead the ones with the faith the size of a mustard seed hopefully to God through His Son Jesus Christ, and leave enough of a thumb print of God that those who believe will recognize the origin of the program.


In closing,


Abandon yourself to God as you understand God. Admit your faults to Him and to your fellows. Clear away the wreckage of your past. Give freely of what you find and join us. We shall be with you in the Fellowship of the Spirit, and you will surely meet some of us as you trudge the Road of Happy Destiny


May God bless you and keep you—until then. AA Big Book A Vision for You p. 164




Old School AA AZ Conference 2013 Downloads

We have just added some articles that we are using in the October 13 2013 workshop with Dick B. These articles aren’t just for the workshop though – they are an interesting historical read all on their own! Get them below or on our Literature and Resources pages!

Articles (AA Workshop)

‘Spiritus contra Spiritum’

The phrase is often translated to mean ‘Spirit against the effects of spirits.’ Spiritus in latin is the word for both alcohol and the highest religious experience.

This phrase is referenced in Carl Jung’s letter response to Bill W. in 1961. Jung states that ” craving for alcohol was the equivalent on a low level of the spiritual thirst of our being for wholeness, expressed in medieval language: the union with God .(” As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul aftter Thee O God” – Psalm 42:1)

This is well said and ties in nicely with BB p 164 ” We shall be with you in the Fellowship of the Spirit, and you will surely meet some of us as you trudge the Road of happy destiny.”  I feel that destiny is union with God as Christ prayed for same for His believers in John 17:20-26.

I received a photocopy of those letters from Jung to Bill W. from the NYC GSO on Thursday 9-27-13, along with an article on the Oxford group- also known as the First Century Christian Fellowship- and their  influence on AA . The article concludes by saying “But He (God) apparently used Frank Buckman and the Oxford Group (to bring AA into existence)”.

If that bothers you, take comfort in the fact that it bothered Bill W. when Ebby first presented the Group message -that is, the Christian Oxford Group message -to him. But didn’t it all work out in a wonderful way!

Paul R ,Tucson.

Five Smooth Stones Redux

What a Shepherd Boy Can Teach Us About Stepping-Out With Faith in Our Lives and Recovery

Charles Stanley recently wrote a piece about David and his five smooth stones, and I believe the message is certainly strong for those in recovery.

David V Goliath

Remember, this is not the King and Warrior David, or the Psalmist David, but the Shepherd Boy David.   Most of us are at least tacitly familiar with the story of David and Goliath, as it has been a staple of Sunday school teaching for years.  It has sadly lost some power and meaning though, as it has become entrenched into the Western Canon as a watered down metaphor for the “underdog vs. the monolithic ‘big-guy”.   There is much more to the story than that for the alcoholic though….

For the full story please refer to 1 Samuel 17, but the synopsis is that the longtime foe of the Israelites, the Philistines are at it again.  Israel has defeated them quite often in the past, but this time the Philistines are led by Goliath, a “giant”, and their newest WWF fighting champ!

According to the Biblical record, Goliath stood “six cubits and a span” tall.  If an 18-inch length for a cubit is applied, this works out to a height of 3.2 meters or 9 feet six inches.  If the 21-inch length for a cubit is used this would be 3.5 meters or just over 11 feet!  (Note: A span is apparently nine inches).  Whichever tape measure we use, Goliath was big; especially considering archaeology reveals that the average height of a man in the Aegean and Canaan areas was 1.64 meters tall (5 ft. 4 ½ in.) during the Iron Age!

Of course, we all know the next bit:  This huge giant of a man, Goliath, stood out in front of the Philistines and taunted the Israelites across the field:  Send forth a single man on behalf of Israel to fight Goliath for all the goodies! Winner takes all!  (Cue the Deep Voiced Announcer:  “Let’s get ready to rummblllllle!!”)

But you know how it all ends:  David, the shepherd boy volunteers, hurls a stone, kills Goliath, goes on to become the King, and one of the most famous individuals in the history of mankind….


David’s Victory And Recovery

So, how does this so called Sunday School Story relate to the program of AA and our lives in recovery?  Perhaps no where better than here:

Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path….

With all the earnestness at our command, we beg of you to be fearless and thorough from the very start. Some of us have tried to hold on to our old ideas and the result was nil until we let go absolutely.

Remember that we deal with alcohol—cunning, baffling, powerful! Without help it is too much for us. But there is One who has all power—that One is God.

May you find Him now! 
 Half measures availed us nothing. We stood at the turning point. We asked His protection and care with complete abandon. (BB pg. 58 and 59)

…So our troubles, we think, are basically of our own making. They arise out of ourselves, and the alcoholic is an extreme example of self-will run riot, though he usually doesn’t think so. Above everything, we alcoholics must be rid of this selfishness. We must, or it kills us! God makes that possible. And there often seems no way of entirely getting rid of self without His aid. Many of us had moral and philosophical convictions galore, but we could not live up to them even though we would have liked to. Neither could we reduce our self-centeredness much by wishing or trying on our own power. We had to have God’s help.

This is the how and why of it. First of all, we had to quit playing God. It didn’t work. Next, we decided that hereafter in this drama of life, God was going to be our Director. He is the Principal; we are His agents. He is the Father, and we are His children. (BB pg. 62)

Our Powerlessness

From the outset, we must recognize our utter powerlessness over alcohol and those things that kept us in the drink.  Alcohol does not just represent a metaphorical giant to the alcoholic; it will literally kill us, but usually only after destroying our families, jobs, finances and everything else of value first.  In our active disease, our minds cannot leave alone what our bodies cannot handle; this fate eventually becomes worse than a loud-mouthed 9-foot warrior to the alcoholic lost in his or her cups!

And so we must do what seems foreign to so many in the grips of this existential threat:  We must turn ourselves over to God’s care, and we must do so with the complete faith and knowledge that only He can deliver us from these chains of alcoholic misery in the first place.  The founders were VERY clear on this point, repeatedly hammering it into the material of the Big Book.  They were also clear regarding the following:  It only is by daily turning our lives over to His care that we can stay sober.  Beyond just staying sober, this is the only way we grow in our faith, our serenity, and in our ability to help others.   But it takes the first full step of faith; that first step of faith is taken every morning.  (Give heed to the voice of my cry, My King and my God, For to You I will pray.  My voice You shall hear in the morning, O Lord; In the morning I will direct it to You, And I will look up.  Psalm 5:2-3)

David’s Faith – Our Faith

So, going a bit deeper upon returning to our Sunday School story, consider again, young David:  A boy, probably a teenager, tending his father’s sheep gets called up to play music for King Saul.   David soon becomes Saul’s armor-bearer and gets to hang out with the men for a while-but he still has to go home and take care of the sheep, like a little kid on occasion (though he likely did it out of respect for Jesse, his father).  Now, along comes Goliath who not only threatens the Israelites, but insults their God.  All of a sudden everyone on the Israelite side is restless, irritable, and discontent…and fearful!   In other words, no one, no soldier, will face what in their minds, in their self-centered, self interested, fearful view is imminent death by stepping onto the battlefield. 

Except for David.  David quickly sees this man through the lens of childlike faith not as an enemy of gigantic proportions that threatened him with bodily harm, but as an enemy of the people of God, ergo of God Himself:

“Who is this uncircumcised Philistine that he should defy the armies of the living God?” (1 Samuel 17: 26b)

David is no fool-hearty hero “wannabe” here, and this is where secular society perhaps misses the point when they use this story as a metaphor for the underdog versus the bully.  David simply believes that this battle is already won because it is the only faithful outcome to consider.  All that this fight requires is that someone from the Israelites trust God and, go do it.  The modern metaphors would perhaps be better served if folks related this more like a Nike commercial-Just Do It!  That is the real message!

So David, “just does it”. Now consider the faith this took. He eschews the weapons and armor Saul thrusts upon him and takes up what he is comfortable with-the tools he has at that moment that he is used to.  Small, and seemingly inconsequential weapons better suited to defending a flock of sheep, he takes his staff and leather sling and collects five smooth stones.  Next, he squares off against Goliath, and after listening to the Giant hurl insults David proclaims the following:

“You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied.  This day the Lord will deliver you into my hands, and I will strike you down and cut off your head. This very day I will give the carcasses of the Philistine army to the birds and the wild animals, and the whole world will know that there is a God in Israel.  All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the Lord saves; for the battle is the Lord’s, and he will give all of you into our hands.” (1 Samuel 17:45-47)

And of course, David dispatched of the Philistine with one single faith-filled effort….

All In

There are so many sermons and studies built around the “five smooth stones” and they all have merit.  But in the end, rather than ascribe virtue to the stones that we take up as instruments of our faith we can simplify it thus:  David took five stones, but only used one.  He had no way of knowing how many rocks it would take to kill a man like Goliath, and he took his staff too; maybe he would need that as well.  David took the steps that made sense pragmatically, but he left all the rest to God.  David stepped boldly out, placing his faith in, and indeed his very life into the hands of God against an enemy that had defeated and threatened and placed fear in the hearts of many bigger men than him.

So too, it must be with us in recovery.  We cannot conquer alcohol or stay sober without turning our will and lives over to the care of God-completely and without reservation.  And while we may not be able to do this perfectly at first, once we admit powerlessness (that part we must do completely and perfectly in order to begin the healing) we then must place our faith in something much bigger than ourselves. The founders speak of turning to God who has all power against alcohol.  David reacted to virtual death as viewed through the eyes of grown men, not with the same fear, but instead with the faith of a child. Through trusting in God’s Grace and Providence, rather than his own power, his faith is vindicated.  

We cannot live with one foot in recovery and one foot in our old life; we must live a life divorced from our old thinking and habits.  Without help it is too much for us.  But there is One who has all power-that One is God.  May you find Him now?

The real message of “David vs. Goliath”:  David, believed in his heart the seemingly unwinnable battle was already won-all he had to do was step out in faith and do what he knew how to do (“the next right thing”).  He found God, he kept faith, he faced his fears and turned them over.  No one said it was easy, just simple.

God, I offer myself to Thee—to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life. May I do Thy will always!’’ (Third Step Prayer BB pg. 63)

AA Recovery Workshops October 11-12 2013

The Friend of Bill’s Friend’s Group is proud to announce that there will be a recovery related workshop featuring Dick B and his son Ken B. on Saturday October 12th 2013 from 6:30 to 8:30 PM  at the Tucson Women’s Club 6245 E. Bellevue Tucson AZ 85712.

Dick B is the author of many books on AA History including The Good Book and the Big Book. We have a flyer for the event in our downloads section.

Dick and his son Ken will also be giving the workshop in Phoenix on Friday October 11th from 6:30 – 8:30 PM. There is also a flyer in the downloads section.

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